MuSt EvErYoNe HaVe LoVe To LiV3?JoShUa=AnTi~LuRv3!

2007-04-06T23:42:00.000+08:00

erm..this is a personal message to you(you should know who u are)..when to see her blog just now..then i stumbled upon something..and i remembered about that incident last november..hais..she was thinking what happened to our friendship..well..you wan to know why our friendship ended so early?well..you should roughly know..anyway..i dun wan to spell the whole thing out..cos i know if i stir the past up..we most likely will have a war..you u also know that i dun wanna lose "her" too..well..anyway..past is past..and what we become now u also know cannot be undone..although i really miss our super-glue friendship last time..though we tend to quarrel too..we just have to move on with our life..but we know that aleast that we are still friends?dun feel bad(although based on ur character..hehe)..no matter what happened in the past..the deepness of our friendship lies in my heart..

2007-04-05T23:28:00.000+08:00

BTW people..the links..is not the final one..cos i dam tired..from today..so i decided another day then do..so if your link not at there..taggie me..i will add u on the next season..XD..

2007-04-05T21:10:00.000+08:00

hais..FUCKED UP lar..although only one day after my birthday..but alot of things happened..hais..before that..thanks francesca..for the gift..with ur _ _ _ _ _!wahahas..conference with kai li..meli..brenda..TQ..i and kai li fought about something..hais..not one of the biggest fights..but like one of the most emotional fights..totally stressed out by it..then meli also joined in abit..help her..then stop the fight..hahas..but u know..no one can stop me and kai li when we start fighting de lars..hahas..but in the end..i not angry wth her..just hope that we can have more trust between each other lors!tomorrow is "SYF" le..hahas..hope we do well!

HaPpi3 BiRtHdAy..

2007-04-04T22:41:00.000+08:00

hahas..birthday today lors..thought it would be a bad day..cos early in the morning..mother started to scold me..then got pissed off lor..so stormed off to school..saw kumaran..then he say the bus just left..so i and him walked to school lors..in school..hahas..forced everyone i see to shake hands with me..hahas..then during recess..meli gave me a BEAUTIFUL birthday card..THANKS meli!Krappi3 rocks!XD..hahas..then after school..more people wished me!Senior Francis also treated me to lunch..she say can order whatever i liked..hahas..wanted to fleece her..hahas..since she so rich..but dun feel like eating..so just order something small..mee kia($1.50) and drink..$1++..hahas!thanks francis!then banded..then fall in kimmy say sing song for me..WAAA!malu sia..then say all wan to pillar me..HENG in the end never..sky at there..i so scared..hahas..then went compass to wait for mother..hahas..then kimmy and jessica gave me a box..think pencil case?THANKS GALS!XP..then went to eat with my family..hahas..jack's place..wanted to go to the plaza cafe the buffet there de..but then mother say dun wan..too far..so next monday then go..haha!that's almost all!THANKS people!(although my birthday wish never come true!)XD..

HALELUJAH!

2007-04-01T23:38:00.000+08:00

YAY!sorry...haven't written like in around 3 months le..my acc lors..like siao siao de...then sec three work tough mahs!so never go care much about it too lors..hahas...anyways..got back my acc!got one more reason to smile again!hais...SYF coming in 9 days...dam scared...now even every day have band..i will also borrow home instrument home everyday too!

LAST DAY OF SUSPENSION!

2007-02-09T16:22:00.000+08:00

hahas...today was the o level results...then i still duno how my seniors did!hope they did well!:P...then today so tempted to go and ask Mr Tan to let let me go band today de...but some of me friends say dun bahs...cos they say he might increase the suspension...hahas...so i abit scared then dun wan le lors...wait really then i cry!WAHAHAS!well...tomorrow finally can step into the band room le...around 16 and a half hours more...then can touch my precious le!hahas...hope i can hit the high notes...cos the first time i can't!then today school so slack...4 periods...3 periods are art...then just paint...seraphine painted my whole hand!arrr!lucky can scrubbed off...heng...then last period is english...more slack...just at there do compo...and the compo like is can copy from the paper de...then slack and went outside band room...want go in...lols...but scared...hahas!nvm...just ren a little more can le!hahas!

still in suspension!XD

2007-02-08T18:30:00.000+08:00

lols...life...sometimes you just have all the luck...sometimes...u will really be down till u wanna give life up...hais...today is the 6th day of my suspension!!!waaa!almost going nuts....worse is like this whole week like have around 7 to 8 tests....then i can't fully concentrate...when i thinking of how to solve the question in the test...my mind will go blank then keep thinking of jalan...then music...the band...then e flat...how to play well...hais....very scare...heard from someone that have to seniors not happy that i take e flat..hais...one no need say is "her" lors...so clearly written in her blog liao...and...also clarinet senior....
anyways...hope that the "her" can come and teach me...take it as i beg ok?cos i no experience in this kind of thing...well...if it's impossible...then suan le...but pls hors...dun suan me about me le...take it as what i did in the past is all my fault and i say sorry ok?
around 38 more hours than i can touch into band room bahs!hahas!can't wait...like coming out of jail...yipee!!!

stopping my blog from rotting!

2007-02-07T15:16:00.000+08:00

hie!people...sorry...i did not post around like 2 months le bahs?hahas...didn't know what i was doing too?hahas...any way...much happen!my greatest dream has been fufilled!i finally got the instrument that i have longed and longed for...since my first band camp...i saw xin yu holding an instrument...so beautiful and cute...and i fell in love le bahs?then since after that...i keep having desparations to play and have contact with it...anyways...hahas...I GOT IT!!!i so happy!hahas...but got suspened...waaa...sob...nvm...when i go back that time i just bring back everydat and practise like siao!!!

???

2006-12-14T12:52:00.000+08:00

is lurv3 really worth it?is it worth for u to push all the way through ur means to get it?some people play it schemingly...while others play it generous and opened...well...i duno what am i playing it...oh wadever...i just wanna know how can it control us so easily...making us breakdown in like just a split second?i really dun think it's fair...why can't god just let our first try work?why can't he let people just taste the pure sweetness of love?why must humans have different tastes?some always tasting the bitterness,while others just keep get the perfectness?the sweet sweet taste of it?always pamper by it?never having need to be spoil by the sourness?they say love is a game...unless the sucesses...i bet the rest dun wanna put their 100% emotions into it...but in the end...we can't...love is always like that...making you do a "showhand"...and when u lose...u are forced to have a bankrupt(breakdown)...you can say that i am selfish...but one of my wishes for this christmas will be that i hope this world will not have any more love...even if there is,i DUN WANNA SEE IT...

LuRv3 to0 hArD?

2006-12-13T23:03:00.000+08:00

hais...actually...was in a happy mood today...was sick in the morning...so eat panadol then sleep awhile then wake up and felt better...so i was in a good mood...then went out with kai li,xin yi,steven,chzeck den...and jing wen(sec 1)euphonium de...went to kovan to meet...then went to eat...wanted to go bowling...but in the end...only me and xin yi wanted to play lors...so instead went to watch happy feet...went into the mrt to travel to plaza sing...duno lei...suddenly all moody and sad after simon called...duno lar...why hear his voice then like suddenly felt so sad...and stevn still make me worse when he tried to take a picture of my wadever lar...then i pek chek so when the the train reached the next stop...i just went down...and kai li called...didn't wanted to go with them liao...just wanted to be alone to cool down...but xin yi and steven phone in my hands...so no choice...had to pass back to them...so i just went to look for them...tried to acted abit happier...but just didn't had the mood...so went to buy the tickets...didn't really had the mood...went to toliet...wanted to let all my sadness out...but steven came in...i duno...just didn't felt right...i have never felt this way before...movie started...anyfunny parts i just kept laughing...but the more i wanted to laugh...the more i just wanted to cry?hahas...i think i am going kind of bonkers soon...i really duno...so movie...didn't remember much about it...i just know it was about penguins?anyway...after movie...we ate...then splited our way...homed...

2006-12-11T16:36:00.000+08:00

yo!sorry didn't blog these few days...was abit lazy you see...anyway...went to sentosa on friday...we went to the beach only...and everyone wanted to stay dry...but in the end we all got wet...hahas...and wanted to eat at there...but too expensive for the rest and mie...so went back to the food court and makan there...
yesterday went to the singapore armed forces concert...their clarinet playing is clarinet playing is crystal clear...although have 6...sound like only one...hope my section can be like that...wo0Ts!and the first clarinet the first chair...sound like abit stick out...and mr er say sound like me...T.T...so sad...anyway...will improve myself de...then i suddenly found out why i have not been good in playing my clarinet like the past liao...cos i am too lazy...NEVER BRING BACK INSTRUMENT!must bring back to pratice liao...SYF coming...can't slack...can do it now...cos school open not much time liao...
yesterday went home at 2 plus(AM)...then chat with Ah-Di(simon) awhile...talked about lots of stuff...then was like feeling energectic...so went to cycle...duno cycle and cycle...waaaa...went all the way to jalan eunos?i dun even know where the fish is that...wahahas...came back...was dam tired...anyway...now raining...quite sad...duno what to de...tomorrow have band...haven't pratice on the last movement....

BaNd...

2006-12-05T23:20:00.000+08:00

todae had band...quite good for miie...cos second got praise...mr er said that we good...quite happy...then he scolded me...said that i keep sticking out...like to play alone...might as well dun be in clarinet section...then really feel like giving DAM black face...but control...must...or he sure bitch de...so i keep quiet...then he suddenly say that i have "CP"...waaa...my whole face turned black liao...then i keep think...what have i done wrong?he didn't even hear my story and then he scold me le...aleast must hear my story right?nvm...dun wan angry...then went lunch...dined with xin yi and gang...went back to band...wo0ts...mr er never scold second...say we good...then saw xin yi and li juan face...so am choi...lols!then i tell them..."li juan,xin yi...what did i teach u all last time?must be humble right?"
then we 3 brust out in laughter...lols...first time we performed so well...hope we can keep up the good work...LOLS!xin yi...li juan...MUST BE HUMBLE WORS!lols!XD...

My Lif3 sUx?

2006-12-04T12:19:00.000+08:00

hais...think of publishing another post before i leave this house...feel a PeK cHeK...stupid brother pissed me off today...tell wan fight like that...hate that attitude...pls lor...i one hand smack on his face he cry liao...now still wan me pass him the computer...hais...but i used to it liao lar...i know violence can't do anything to help...i just have to talk my way out can liao...anyway...yesterday dun know why i suddenly like so moody sia...cos i suddenly think why do i have to wait for her so long?is this all worthwhile?i heard that he propsed to her liao...and like 99% of the band is helping him?i feel so lost?my light to show me the path to walk is gone...i can only count on my night vision now...will i ever be able to make my light likght my path once again to move on?

2006-12-04T10:53:00.000+08:00

FuN day yesterday...met up with pei shan,kia li,quan at compass...discussed very long wherethe to go ikea or pasir ris park(again)...three of them all voted for pasir ris park...but i objected and was the only who voted for ikea...well...but guess who won?although it was a one against three...i managed to make them go ikea!lols...and because of the funny quarrel that made us the "TONG" family...wahahas!wait for sean and steven at the bus stop later on...also took some photos!always couldn't get the pic we wanted...till like ten or more takes than can...
after meeting them on the bus...we left for ikea!reached there...saw a man giving away free hearts...then the sean...really make us DAM pai seh...went to take more hearts...but in the end we also foolowed his foot steps and took like 10 each?lols...i got 17...what to do?free what?then we became the kaisu "TONG" family...hahas...then went to eat at a something like a wet market?kia li said that the food there was very nice...and worthed to eat...i find it ok lah...but the hokkien mee very nice...lols...but whtever i follow her buy is more expensive than the rest and SMALLER too!lols!then went back to ikea to buy meatballs for pei shan mummy to say sorry for her to return home so late...she really loves her mother yahs?lols..went home tired...say want conference then all PS me...sian...fell asleep...anyway...lols...later maybe go watch happy feet...heard very cute...well...g2g soon...bb!XD...

THE "TONG" FAMILY-
PeI sHaN-mI tOnG(rice barrel)
Te QuAn-ShUaI tOnG(water barrel)
St3vEn-ZhU tOnG(thin barrel???)
KiA lI-YoU tOnG(oil barrel)
SeAn-Ma ToNg(toliet bowl barrel)XD...
JoShUa(Mi3)-NaI tOnG(milk barrel-high in clacium)

GoLd!

2006-12-02T23:49:00.000+08:00

sorry guys...wanted to write alot today...but i got pissed off at MSN...brainless...talk to you nicely show me attitude...then still say i show u attitude...talk to you really can really can get dam Du LaN and bloody PeK cHeK...wadever...sorry...i no mood write le...maybe other time guys...nite!

Th3sE fEw DaYs RoXs!

2006-12-01T22:49:00.000+08:00

Wo0Ts!these few days was really fun...although i find myself quite empty at times!this wednesday...went out with steven,shu xian,te quan,mitchell,simon,yinhui.arthur,benett,sean and the brainless lor...we went to cycle,then from punngol plaza cycle all the way to chomp chomp food cou rt at KOVAN!wahahas!was so tiring...so i ate a plate of white carrot cake & century egg with pork porridge at there,adding a big cup of ching chow!wow!was so good!then cycle back...but was really tired liao...so after cycle back to sengkang,then i went to the pasar malam and bought a piece of fish...and ice pop!waaaa!i am so going to be broke liao...then me,tequan,arthur,benett and simon went under a void deck to talk talk...then i and quan went back at 11.30pm...can't take it...cos tomorrow have band!

band...
arrr!mr er finally scolded me cos i too loud?so strange...lols!nvm...just try to tone down...cos my dear and beloved senior shu pei...these days have something on...so i afaird...cos yesterday mr er scold us...say now 3rd clarinet is getting better...and 2nd is so weak...wth?our second clarinet very bonded de leh...and we not that weak what?wonder what's our problem?

today...
first in the morning went to see shu pei...felt sad...not for her...but in my heart...i just felt sad...after...went with xin yi to meet kai li...then eat chicken rice(add rice and chicken)...then after...went to meet the rest near the white snads bus stop...went out with steven,mitchell,sean,quan,xin yi,kia li,shu xian,niao(lai sim)...we went cycling at pasir ris park...i and kai li rent twin bike...then we play till time end...then play spider web...yay!i one of the fastest de!then went macdonalds to eat...lols!kai li say i treat her chicken burger($2)so she passed me $1...lols!i go take the butter knife and cut in half and pass her one half...her face like abit pek chek...lols!then we 2 laugh...anyway...she make my fries drop!hais...i more pek arr!LOLS!anyway...after...take 89...went cut hair...homed!XD...competeion tomorrow!rest well band mates!

StArTiNg To FlAr3 LiAo...

2006-11-30T23:26:00.000+08:00

the words below...abit abusive...but i today really angry sia...

waaa...today i think i have seen through some colours of some of my friends...the fucking bitch...i said...have to donate more...and that bitch said...also not my father die...why must i donate?i really got so bloody fucked up and du lan...in my heart i was like...ka ni ni bei chou chi bye...even if u dun wanna donate...also no need to say this right?after i told xin yi this...i and her so fucking pek chek lor...and she's ur senior...how can u do this to her?nvm...dun talk about bitches like that...ruin my blog...anyway...si min didn't wan to talk to me today...fine...i never even say i angry she show me attitude again...fine...since u wan it this way...

NoT tOuCh My PiLlIoW iN 48 hOuRs?

2006-11-27T23:46:00.000+08:00

waaa!so tired...yet dun feel like sleeping sia!happened yestaerday...min ask me go stay overnight in the 2I class chalet...so i went...can say the food is quite little...but it was really very fun lors...the real party started at around like 8pm bahs?yuany(xin yuan) took the food that they left to BBQ again...so i just slacked lor...walked around and hear new song...min and steven pang sei me lor...actually...min only lars...ps kia!then they came back...and the people BBQing outside also finished the food...so everyone gathered in the room and we started talking about...almost everything?then we talked till almost like 2 plus bahs...then we decied that we wanna bath...then head to Macdonalds...but we watched this ghost show...then all dun dare bath alone...so we bath 4 by 4...soon,we headed to Mac and grab a snack...then went back around 4.30 am liaos...then talk and watch TV...soon...many fell asleep then we just watch the sun rise...requested by yuany(so dam tired liaos)...after...went back to sleep...then we make some lame jokes...OMG!i feel that i following steven's footsteps liao...can't be lame lars!i hate feeling so lame des!LOLS!then next morning...think was an unlucky(DAMMED)...i woked up...then rushed to the school gate...looked so ulgy!my hair like wild bush...anyway...met xin yi,ailing,shu pei,shu xian,chan,juan,kai li,lie sim,meli,joyce...then mother rushed me back...waa!dam angry...make me cook noodles!then we went there liao...i lost my whole contact lenes pouch and lotion!was so FUCKED UP sia...crazy lor...and some more my mother lost de lors...angry with her sia...but nvm...lost then lost liao...nvm about it!was such a rainy day...pissed off ...had to find so much people...and they make me run here and run there de...make me mad...but in the end...aleast enjoy...and also found out that one of my senior yin hui...isn't as bad as i see bahs...she quite nice de...thena afetr BBQ we went para para!cool!felt better!Thanks people...love u all so much...for hanging out with me today!think i and min not going to be besties anymore liao...she like always give me attititude faces these days...see lor...tomorrow she dun eat lucnh with me means show clearly liao!nite people!

NuMbNeSs!

2006-11-24T18:23:00.000+08:00

i feel numbness all over my body!cos i have been watching 12 ep. of Da Chang Jin in the morning!wahahas!bored what!then nothing to do!then my grandma help me buy food!then i watch and eat and feel like sleeping!but still watch lors...then chan "ma li chan" called me...say wan do something for seniors!so think we doing tomorrow!hahs!now the sec 2s in clarinet like very bond sia!happie!maybe wish going to happen soon!Wo0Ts!>.<
but jun jie and the jing...sian lor!dun with us go out de!jing going malaysia...so can excuse her lors!but that JJ hun...think what?he have some super star name then no need come arr?fine!next time we sec 3 then he see us so bond he sure like sad sad de!i so bored!dun no what to do!money running out!haven't get my pay!WAAAS!can anyone help me!i need the $25 back soon!XD...

JoBs..jObS...JOBS!!!

2006-11-23T23:28:00.000+08:00

Hais...altogether in the day spent 8-9 hours blogging!WAAA!record sia!CVSS longest time!^^
well...soon after...got a message from xin yi say that wannt me to go with them to find job!waa!lols...poor them...didn't get the job they wanted!told them liao...where have job pay so much de?$20 an hour?then i so bloody sian at home mah,so i go with them lor,since nothing to do!met them at kovan!go buy shoes for ka li first,then i went to buy some shushi($4.50)waa...not fresh de lor!the rice like turn to stone de!lols!then i went old chang che to but sotong!(kimberly ur so yummy!)no job there,so we headed to hougang to look!KFC manager say that come in the morning 11am tomorrow!sian daooooo!then first time i see xin yi give attitude lor!i was like think...WTF!this girl also have attittude de arr?i was SHOCKED!anyway...then we headed to delifrance eat!i eat tuna snadwhich!yummy!then we like created a scene there leh...i laugh like siao!WAHAHAS!then we went home le!hope xin yi is not scolded(although i wish so =X)XD...

AdDiTiOnAl UpDaTe

2006-11-23T15:44:00.000+08:00

sorry...need to add on something...yesterday around 1-3 am talk to ailing on msn...found out that she's very nice!lols...so i take back all the things i said bad about ailing!hahas!AiLiNg...YOU ROCK!lols!

OrAnGeY bLoG?XD

2006-11-23T15:31:00.000+08:00

hey people!i change blog skin liao...anyway...today have work de...but dun feel well...so didn't go...waa.the manager wan me to give MC somemore leh!no more parents letter!WAHAHAS!feel like going out today...mummy not home these few days!they go grandma house!dam it!miss granny's cooking...but it's was her cooking that transformed me into this size de!>.<
my mother say maybe going overseas..with my brother and granny!WTH!then means i alone at home lor!waa...crap leh...i three days never quarrel with my brothers very bored already...then like they go overseas 7-10 days!sian lor...must ask her give me lots and lots of money!so i everyday no band can go out!hehes!then working like abit bored...cos work space so small!then my senior there owe me $25!i need it back to but something sia...try to get it back tomorrow!humph...why arthur,anita and like so many seniors keep asking me to not be angry with her and go talk to her!i'm like abit pissed lor...that time the other ap problem...she so angry with me...some of them also never help me and still reprimand me...now she in the wrong...and they help her so much...then i wrong...everyone go against me!hais...whatever...dun care le...just wan to play the sun thingy well!spent 6 hours in blogging liao...i saw joash blog...waaa...i thought everyone help him de leh...didn't noe that also have spammer spam himde~!sad for him...but the xin yu have help him fight back...but none help me leh!lols...bye...XD

LoLs!

2006-11-22T23:39:00.000+08:00

hahas!todae couldn't sectional...cos band room not opened...but we still went out...xin yi..chan..juan..steven..mitchell..me..went my house PARTY!we supposed to meet at 10am at cp de...but i was still sleeping...WAHAHAS!then i awoke when i heard my phone rang...xin yi called!ARRGG!...i then saw the time and saw is 10.13am liao!lols!had to make my poor grandma fetch me to CP in a hurry!then we went to buy ffod and drinks to party lor...all i pay leh!no $$$ liao!lols...but never mind...money is not a problem...i just want us to bond!i very great right?lols..jkjk...but we had fun...i bought a family sized chicken...i actually make de...then burnt!AHHHH!all my effort leh!then want make shushi!make no vinegar liao...then never make...but i had fun...hope all the sec twos in clarinet can be like one!XD

FuN & bLoOd In ThE sUn?

2006-11-21T23:27:00.000+08:00

lols...went to work at 9am todae morning...around 12.25...boss ask me give out coupon to people...then suddenly i saw kai li and the rest...lols...they all waiting for me to go with them...but i have like 2000 coupons to give out?then i just choing like siao lors...then we went to pasir ris park to cycle...fun...i ride with shu pei de two sitter de...lols...she really drive me nuts lor...she can't ride at all...the i keep riding front...very tired...push myself is already a burden...with her...i almost grew nuts...lols...but i enjoyed it...cos can talk to her about the problems faced in the section and how to improve...then ailing like so act lor...show off that she can ride faster than me...if i alone...she become peanuts liao...I AM A SINNER!!!lols...cos i play with kai li and anita when we riding...then...both of them fall down because of me...hais...feel so guilty...ailing and yinhui reprimanded me...feeling like crying...like i villian of the show like that...hais...then they bleed and bleed and bleed and bleed...but they beri nice...they say it's alright...hais...kai li still crack a joke...say wait her mother thought people abuse her or something...this taught me not to play when riding...IT MAY BE FATAL!!!then we went for dinner at white sands...yummy!!!
then we took a bus back...fun...apart from the other sections...i feel that 2nd clarinet(Shu Pei,Xin Yi,Li Juan and me) bonded alot...more than usual...cos we always bond de...during band...we talk...and i'm always the victim...cos all the scolding that we get from talking goes to me!sad...lols!hahas...other clarinetists,Li Chan,Steven,Ailing...we bonded too!lols...tomorrow steven,juan,chan,xin yi coming my house to pratice clarinet...BLASTING!hehe!i cooking black pepper chicken and making shushi!hehe!well...fill u in tomorrow on the thing that's going to happen!hope my house won't be in a mess!nite!

AnGrY & dIsSaPoInTeD?

2006-11-16T08:31:00.000+08:00

hais...can't say out this blog in words...but...just very angry with a junior and TOTALLY dissapointed with my senior...dun need to say i know her like 2 years?while the sec one only know her 1 year...then she help her?i always wan to please her...i really tried my best...but everyone have a limit...and when we reach that limit...we need something to push us to move even more...i really need that push...but instead i'm getting a pull?to make all my efforts in vain?if she really wants to blame everything with me in it...please...tell me in advance...so i can take the blow...i dun wan to breakdown again...for a person who acts this way...

yesterday band...much things happen...and i sit down and think...i came up with a conclusion...which is...you dun also reap what u sow...that is so true...well...got scolded by simon in the morning...for acting CuTe...diaos...nvm...i dun care anyway...
the afternoon...she reprimanded me for blocking the sexaphone...then i had a tiff with her...nvm...it's alright...
after lunch...i help to teach junior winter...then she said that she cannot blow well cos her clarinet dun like her...what?that was when my anger raised...then francesca came in...she complained that i ACTUALLY bullied her...then francesca looked at me...the expression...i almost cried...i just slammed the door and walked off...she actually believed the sec one instead of me?

BaNd...

2006-11-13T00:57:00.000+08:00

hello...siao lor...the holiday all filled up with band...ok...i admit...i do love band...but too much of a good thing is also bad right?well...i think i wan to play the sun thingy...nice...hope can play that for SYF bah...but like have some people dun like leh...so dun noe where the have change anot lars...
anyways...hais...theses few days no band then i watch the DA CHANG JIN...i am going crazy over it lor...evening watch till 5am?da chang jin have 70 ep.
so i think that i watch around 3 times liao...2 times korean and once in chinese!must beat mr er in learning how to speak korean!...one night watch 10 ep. bah...
anyway...i wan go watch my DCJ liaos...nites...tomorrow have band!

UpDaTeS...

2006-11-07T12:45:00.000+08:00

guys...sorry...couldn't update so many things that i wanted to talk about...cos i need time to think about alot of things...hais...thought about it liao...maybe love is fate...and fate is destiny...and destiny is what i must obey and follow...and maybe...i shouldn't even have touch on the surface of love...or i might fall and drown...anyway...now...i think that i am going to give up and not even into a fantasy any more...JoShUa=AnTi-LoVe?

NoT fEeLiNg WeLl...

2006-10-25T14:14:00.000+08:00

hais...duno leh...dun really feel very well...really sad...my whole person live changed totally leh...MiN make me so sad and angry with her...that guy keep smoking then i feel so angry at him...never take my advice...duno lar...just feel like giving up...hais...results like sai...mother will kill me...hais...dun feel like talking so much...tomorrow the mini school concert also very texing...wait have stage fright...singing how do i live...wan sing for HeR...actually...i choosed this song for her...but so scared tghat i won't sound nice at all...then my voice is also not as nice as joash de...tell me how leh?hais...hope that u all did well for ur blog too...take care guys...and pls no spamming too...i couldn't talk these few days cause...have lot of exams and sadness going through my life...

CoNtAcT lEnS...

2006-10-03T09:02:00.000+08:00

YEAH!got my contact liao...cried alot yesterday...cos very not used to it...then teared alot...hais...but i dun care...i will do this for HeR...it for her anyway...now need to slim down...and enlarge my eyes...hope she will like it lor...contact quite nice lar...but must blink more...so the eye can be moist...hahas...lame...anyway...yesterday saw her when i buying food...like have a new feeling...like deeper kind lehs...duno bahs...just concentrate on exams first...i want to go good class...saw joash todae...my friends saw too...then all say i sure no chance...hais...felt very betrayed by my friends...are these what friends are for?XD...

2nD pArT?

2006-10-02T15:03:00.000+08:00

hello people...have to change c box...deal with so many SPAMMERS!well...that nite...play lantern with min,jing,wen xuan,stuart and zhi xiang...hais..hahas!they order pizza...have 16 pieces...i ate 10?wahahas!what the hel...like pig...then go punngol park walk walk...lalalas...then play block catching...fun...i and wen xuan one team...never get caught!almost got sabo by jing!HUMPH!lols...but quite fun...
yesterday went grandma house the market eat...ARR!one meal $10!5 pratas...1 bowl porrige...you tiao...drink...and 8 chee kway?I AM SO GOING TO GET FAT!hahas!exams coming liao...dun think can write so much...take care guys!BB!XD...

aNgEl Or DeViL???!!!

2006-09-30T18:56:00.000+08:00

yesterday...mother come back home so late...11 plus...heard she changing office...hais...make me dun wan stay at home...so went out...went to collect my contact lens...sian...haven't make yet...sad case...then went clementi to eat steak...black pepper...then took a toopid bus to hougang...watse 2 hours of my time...then meet friends...ate laksa...so dam little lor!then play a while...still 6pm...I AM SO DAM BORED!then went to Plaza Singapore...watch movie...john tucker must die...they say funnie...like sai lor!not funnie...then so many people laugh...lame...bought 700gms fish...kway tiao...and SU SHI!!!then the stupid tar tar sauce...drip on me...but quite nice lar!continued tonite...go play lantern now...bb...XD

2006-09-28T16:20:00.000+08:00

Hais…seeing joash bloggie… makes me spechless…was his touching story true?or was it just to gain pity HeR? well…I let you all the audience choose…I am just shocked!hahas…well…whoever she chooses…I will just give her my blessings bah…8 months ago…on the 18th of feb…when I lurved her…I had no idea that so much people who fall for her…and I couldn’t even thought of the complicated situation that I would land myself up with her…just a simple 4 letter word”love” could end up like a 40 million words epic poem?not to mention the stress encountered in this period of time…well…I will just continue to lover her with my very best and like take story take place with it’s own setting bahs…anyway…I have a song to dedicate to HeR…
It’s called…”I will always love you”…hope you enjoy…

If I
Should stay
I would only be in your way
So I'll go
But I know
I'll think of you every step of the way
And I...Will alwaysLove you, oohh
Will alwaysLove you
YouMy darling youMmm-mm
BittersweetMemories
That is all I'm taking with me
So good-bye
Please don't cry
We both know I'm not what youYou need
And I...
Will always love you
I...Will always love youYou, ooh
I hopelife treats you kind
And I hope
you have all you've dreamed of
And I wish you joyand happiness
But above all this
I wish you love
And I...
Will always love you
I...Will always love you
And I...Will always love you
I...Will always love you
I, I will always loveYou....
You
Darling I love you
I'll always
I'll alwaysLoveYou..
Oooh
Ooohhh
Well...most likely...I will be singing this for you at the next teacher's day...hahas! dun laugh hor...my singing is very bad de...worse than joash...but I am doing this cos...I will always love you...XD

ReAsOnS fOr LoVe?

2006-09-28T14:59:00.000+08:00

Hmm...well...the reason i wrote this blog is because lots of people kept asking me this question...what's my reason for loving HeR?and why when she doesn't like me...but why do i continue loving HeR?so now...let me answer the whole wide world...the reason...is just a simple 4 letter word...and that's called LOVE!do anyone still remembered my crush last year?Jasmin...yup...it was her...almost all my classmates said that i have the worst taste in CVSS for choosing her...well...i told them..."Guys,do you only go for the looks...have you felt what was underneath their skin?"
so...the reason for loving HeR and loving HeR alwasy will be...the feeling in my heart...how do you feel when you look at the person you love?i will feel warm all over my body...hahas!and when i look into her eyes...i mean like eye contact...my heart pound like 100km/hour?
ok...maybe i was over saying it...but it's true...if you have a better explaination...then please share with me?bye...XD

StUpId DaY...

2006-09-26T16:19:00.000+08:00

so unlucky...last whole week...think someone crused me...bad luck like siao...KKN...then todae make me so furious...ask the section fall in twos dun wan...not like i wan say lor...instructions leh...have to follow what...then juniors give very strong AP...hahas...just like me last time...hais...now i know how irritating i was...then the mitchell...thought he's the best...but worse attitude...really wanted to give him a paw print on his face...duno what happened to joyce...unusually quiet...maybe dun wan sit with me...say lar...i let u sit at the back lors...you wan sit where then sit where lor...BUT I JUST WAN 2 GOD DAM IT ROWS!!!most likely i turn very violent when comes to my turn to be senior...tell them to better watch out...min...make me wan slap her...laugh laugh laugh...kao lar!

LiNk Is On!~

2006-09-26T09:01:00.000+08:00

yeah!finally...i do link liao...go see bah...wan me link u just tell me by tagging...must link me too kaes?bye...

ReAlLy SaD???

2006-09-19T08:36:00.000+08:00

yesterday...had a very bad day...and think saddest day of my life...maths was driving me nuts!then i had to stay back to to 2 large projects!was really stressed!worse...was that heard that joash gave chocolate to hEr...felt bad...cos he's always a step ahead of me?and sHe still write in her blog...although she didn't accept...i was still feeling down...duNo why?sometimes i think...am i a failure in life when it comes to love?watched a show on sunday...channel U...is 2 fat people trying to slim down...almost make me cry...so touching...then i thought...what if she was fatter than me?maybe joash won't like her...then if i went to slim down with her...maybe she will find out who really love her...i'm sad...

CaN i SaY tHiS wOrLd SuCkS?

2006-09-12T08:27:00.000+08:00

Before i start this post...i have to say...sorry xin yuan...i have to let off some steam...sorry...
yesterday...i pon maths cube...then went for band...hais...wanna train for machu picchu mahs...so just pon lors...used e11...asked francesca and ailing...ailing smsed me...then francsca said okies...then took reed 2 1/2 from kimmy...francesca abit angry cos every three months then can take one...then warm up...played machu picchu with arthur,jessica,fion,quan...COP rOcKs!!!hahas...then arthur come teach me...he almost fainted...let zi an teach me awhile...
i duno what happened...but why is my rythm so FUCKING lousy?even i am pissed...worst thing is that i am so sad and dissapointed with myself already...then someone still say i give arthur attitude when he teaching and i am packing...i dun know who the sTuPiD sUcKeR is...but i know that i didn't...if that person read this post...and if u dare...come and find me...i dun know who are you...but please get the facts right...i was angry with myself so i gave an attitude face to MYSELF...so dun think that i was giving to him...btw...sorry arthur...for dissapointing you...i think i wasn't in the right mind that day...SoRrY... =[

LaSt ThReE pRaTiCeS...

2006-09-08T23:29:00.000+08:00

Wo0tS!!!lols...last three band pratices was reallt fun!hahas...
MoNdAy xD
no fall in...straight go in AVA room...saw er talking lors...about BBQ we never help...the sec 2s...abit angry...i have help leh!to cook for myself lar!lols...but i not like the rest what...i do myself...not senior cook for me...nvm...one for all...all for one...
so blow lor...tone no GOOD!hais...sad...saw WeI mInG!heard he's the best in clarinet...sit first chair de!orh!hEhEs...i asked him to play abit of machu for me to hear!hAhAs...think maybe i offened him...hehes...sorry...
yeah!first time teach sec 1s...i the onli third senior!taught joyce and brenda A flat and E flat scale!almost cried cos mr er wan change joyce to trumpet!onli have 4 clarinetist then still wan change...ARR!!!lols
lunch...si min in muar...hais...jing yi in japan...haissss....
Came back...WTF...Mr Er promote me to second?i am so shocked!thought will promote after senior leave...hais...second the part very hard...

Wednesday >.<
almost cried and breakdown...morning...Shu pei never come...then all sec three have class...left me,xin yi,juan,chan...scared...the stick hit me 7 times...i do the rythm all wrong...think i am a failure...xin yi almost break down...kai li(saxaphone)cried...poor gal...
Then Mr Er say whole band combined...ARR!!!Xin Yi also go liao...only me then onli second!what the hell...
WAA!!!heng arr!alumni are my life savers!Yiling and Johnatan come save me...they play with me!hEhEs...
lunch...Dam it lar!si min came back liao then ps me again...FLARING UP...
Second still left me...Sad...sec one come liao...Waaa...i am the only clarinetist senior leh!means i have to guide Four sec one in playing challenge?LOLS!
mr er then ask me go out learn with yiling machu...heng..wait i die with the sec ones...yiling expectations very high sia,want every single note to be very clean...i very stress!lols...

Friday XD
came late!owe pei shan ten rounds!lols...miss jing yi...wondering what she doing in japan!hope she's well!Heng mr er never come lor!wait i get scolding...yiling teach the whole second...we laugh abit!some lame jokes!lols...then she abit flared up...cos we very messy...her expectations really high sia...dun noe where the can meet anot?shu pei, xin yi and i keep laughing!hahas!can bond alot!love 2nd!of course i love the whole section too lar!
Lunch...simon with me...aleast he cheered me up abit!jessica quite FuNnIe too!hahas...they 2 make me laugh!
only left me and shu pei...think i dissapoint her abit...my counting very very very very very BAD!Fark myself lar!dam it!why i so noob?sorry...maybe let u all down...band...my rythm like shit...hais...

LaSt FrI...aIrPoRt...BbQ...XxD

2006-09-05T09:37:00.000+08:00

hais...last FRI...one of the saddest day of my life lor...and happiest too lar...those 2 lor...(other than her)happy cos we three went cycling...hahas!so dam fun...but our butts hurt like siao lor!lols...but happy lar...we cycle to marina club there,near the punngol beach lors...then we stop there go see boat...take some pics then headed back...have alot of up hill slopes...so quite hard...have one part very funnie...jing cycle all the way up liao then left me and min lors...LOLS!we struggling lars...hahas!we almost reach the top liao then both no strength then slide back down!WAHAHAS!then jing laugh at us!ARRR!almost wanted to slam her down des!hahas!but reach jing's house almost wan die already...toppid min lors!drink my water all finish!smack her!but very fun over all lors!lols!how can it not be fun when the trinity all hanging out?XD
sad sad thing is that jing went airport that night lor!then i go see her off...sad leh!see her entering the glass door...dam that rat lar!never go send her off...WORSE THING IS...next day BBQ no one go with me sia...so dam sad lor!min have to go muar see relatives...and her doggieXD...then BBQ hanged out with shu pei,chan,juan and xin yi...but soon SHE joined them lor...so i back off le...hais...then just go around talking lor with anyone who was talkalbe...i tried my best not to give attitude...dun know wherethe have work anot...but think have...francesca and sing yee have offer me drink!SO DAM HAPPY!!!XD must work harder...dam it lor...i make 5 chicken wings...so long then cooked...the shi yun...throw sand at them leh!never even say sorry then show me face...will never forgive her lor!bloody hell...then i so hungry when i reach home...wan cry!but still enjoy the BBQ!thank god for it!XD...

XD...

2006-09-05T09:10:00.000+08:00

YEAH!yesterday very happie!have band!finally...but quite sad also lor!HAVE TO LEAVE THIRD CLARINET!my darling leh!i wan go beg mr er to let me go back...then he show me a kind of face...hais...dun wan lar...wait he talk then i have nightmare...worse thing is when he ask go second,he said...this is not promotion hor,AH PUI!wahahas!who cares about all that now?i jus wan thrive hard in band and make my seniors proud bah!dun wan dissapoint them anymore...that's all!XD...

SIANS!!!

2006-08-29T20:28:00.000+08:00

STRESS ARR!stupid school is really driving me nuts!so many common test and all the sai...really killing me...then friends have so many problems...i must help them to solve!lols...today after school...i dragged kaiser to Compass point then be go Sakae shushi...Wahahas!just choing for the buffet!then never even check price then just go in!lols!$35...sad!lols!mother still dun wan give me allowance cos i very bad...lols...i think i eat around 25 plates!Wahahas!lols!Kaiser only like eat 10++ plates...hahas...of course...then u think what am i known for?hahas...then eat already like bloated pig...walking also so diffcult...almost puke in bus...hahas...but enjoyed...i keep laughing...aleast have destress!that's all...bb...loving her for 193 days...

Hi

2006-08-26T12:20:00.000+08:00

HIHI!sorry...didn't update my bloggy in a long time...needed to think about somethings lar...but here i am...back to update...hahas...think someone hacked into my acc...hahas...YES!he did...but who cares?people like that are lamers...hacking into people privacy...whatever...i dun wan use any bad words...YUANY...promise you...i try my best not to use kaes?sorry...Wahahas...Syf coming...very scared...not mr er scolding...but if i will have my first break down in band anot...so quite scare lor...never mind...PERSISTENT...that's what i need...wonder which sec 1 from from clarinet section will join us in SYF...hais...Go0d LuCk all!

Hello

2006-08-23T13:25:00.000+08:00

ELVYN HERE ELVYN HERE

Can't satnd it!!!

2006-08-22T08:46:00.000+08:00

I can't stand life!!!hais...i try my best to help someone...to help them or make them feel better...then i get scolded by them...like in the bloody computer lab...i do so much to make jasmin feel better cos darius go SUAN her...then i say she look prettier...then she kao bei kao bu lor!make me so du lan!kkn lor...i try so much to make her feel better...then she show me some kind of fucking attitude...i dun wan to care about her liao...MISS BAND LIKE SIAO!yay!having band BBQ this friday or sat!yipee!can't wait...

New week in school...

2006-08-15T18:14:00.000+08:00

aha!new week!miss band already...hais...macchu pichu!love ue!hope we can get gold!cos will reflect on mr er and our band name alot...all must pray for us kaes?lols!hais...yesterday in school so angry...then come back see blogs make me more pek chek!Waaaa!then some irritating people keep smsing me and I keep scolding so many bad words!die lars...i very scare...i don't want be villian!that that jun jie...always angry with me...crazy fellow...lucky he going trumpet...or i think i will tell mr er to tranfer me to alto clarinet or base and can transfer joash,TKH and chan ma li chan back to clarinet...haiz...i take band to de stress and enjoy music de lors...but so much friend troubles!sians...lucky have jing yi and min to help me!My god sister and brother...hais...what will i do without them?LOVE UE ALL!kind of moody todae...

What if i let go?

2006-08-13T07:29:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone...yeaterday's concert was a blast...but it didn't go the way i wanted it to go lors...so quite sad...thought will feel very good when performing...but see so many peeps then i very scared and nervous...but still enjoyed it anyways...hahas...just want to say that those who felt that they have done badly during the first half...I LOVE YOU!dun be sad...cos what done is done kaes?but i really want to thank u all for ur hardwork!LOVE U GUYS(Jun Jie,Aurther,Pei Shan,Li Ting and many others!But my most important GUA GUA!I loved ur solo!)see u guys at next year's concert!
haiz...i suddenly feel like slacking alot...really afarid!Is my love getting lesser or what?i really feel very tired...i know my heart says i can't let go...but my stupid and weak body say i am going to...what am i going to do?i need to reboost my energy lvl...soon...or i am going to wear out...loved her for 177 days now...

what happening???!!!

2006-08-09T20:48:00.000+08:00

Something happened to me!!!something really bad!WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?i really very scared leh!dun know have cure anot!concert landdown in 3 days!afarid like anything!die...dun know if aurther angry with me about today anot!i really couldn't make it!loving her for 173 days liao...

sorry for the the late blog...

2006-08-08T22:34:00.000+08:00

Yo guys...so sorry...i the last few weeks computer breakdown so can't enter any post!But i am back!wahahas!Our band concert...which takes place in just 4 days!I am so dam nervous...BAND ROCKS!!!Who want come?still have 100 tickets...i really very anxious if can't all sell finish leh!how?SAD!!!My grude with Xin Yu shold be over by now liao bahs!i did something to make franceseecar very super duper angry...just hope that she will 4give me...and i decided to change my toopid old attitude problem...hope that i can do it!for her sake and my Sl!i know that both of them pit in alot of efforts for me...so mustn't let them down!

WARNING to strangers!!!

2006-08-01T08:27:00.000+08:00

Just want to tell those who come and visit my blog...you either come to tag me telling me things...or u read my blog...if u want to come tag me crap...then i have 2 words to tell you...FUCK OFF!!!I really mean it hor...dun care you who...i really very pissed by some lamers like joash...JOASH NG!!!please dun come disturb me can?Say what fair contest to fight for her...then u restort to these low down tricks to make me pek chek!Dam it lah!Seriously...Is u urself send this toopid sms say want flirt with that si lin...then get so angry and say it's my fault cos i spread!Who ask u send this kind of sms?If you are fated to get her...then u will play fair...like me(BHB,wahahas)...ok?I REALLY HAD ENOUGH OF YOU!!!Oh...aurther...lols!i want to just make it intersting mahs...wait u see the same one then you so bored rights?lols!

CVMB concert countdown!!!

2006-07-30T23:42:00.000+08:00

WAAAAA!Only 13 more days to our yearly Compassvale Secondary Military Band Concert!So scared!Please take a look at our beautiful repuatuor
1)To challenge the frogs,butterfiles and toads on earth(Wahahas)
2)Pigshippy(beautiful solo at last movement)
3)Andy cai tou favourite(Cute sec1 performing)
4)PICAKHU...THUNDER!!!(WAHAHAS!golden alumni perform)
5)The IDIOT of the year...CVMB!Oppps...wait senior all whack me!
6)"love sence"(Mr Er changed the name...cos he's the son of Bert Appermont...haha!)
7)GR selection!(my 3 beats!sob!)
8)Time in one moment!(For our beloved Ang Ju Liang!)
9)Japan Gravity 4(Er funeral's song)
10)Japan gravity 6(Even heavier wors!)
11)Yagibushi(When we shout "hah" dun smell...wait averyl breath make u all faint!Hehe...)
12)DISCOS 70s!(Let's move ur asses upside down!)
So all...please come...want buy tickets can find any band members!Time is running out for our tickets sale!REALLY!Very cheap...for a gold band!And can see me!THE CUTTIE PIE~PUKE~!lols!Pls come...

Ahh...friendship...

2006-07-28T18:46:00.000+08:00

Life is really tiring...the friendship thingy is killing me!haiz...my extie-best friend,min,is really making me very tired in life.I really love her,as friend lah!i really want to patch up with her,cos what happened was really nothing much...there's only one major thing that's holding me back...i am too tired!When i and her are always out together,i really fine...but whenever we quarrel,all my energy get exhausted and emtied!and it takes a really long time to recover from these fights!Sure...i can say straight to you in the face that i love her,as my bestie,but i am really very tired!i dun wanna get hurt time and over again...so does this spell the end of our 18 months friendship?Can anyone please help me?(ILIAD is killing me!!!Wahahas!I want to cry!)
Loving her for 161 days now!~That rival very childish lor!keep disturbing me!not happy then keep kicking me!BLOODY HELL IMATURED!HUMPH!!!

Is life DAM stress or what?

2006-07-26T23:13:00.000+08:00

I REALLY CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!God,please,help me!I really feel like dying.My life is really the most stress in the world!I can garantee to it!In life,there are bound to be problems,that,i can understand.But in mine,it weighs 100 tons!
1)HELL lot of school projects uncompleted
2)Friendship problems with my best friend Min(beyond cure)
3)Going to band and get scolded like SHIT from seniors
4)Helping people in their matters that are like so important but GOT PUNISHED!(really want to cry)
5)Mother driving me nuts(trying to kill me)
6)Band(ILIAD RUNNING NOTES AND b and # driving me NUTS!!!)
See?i doubt anyone can handle these problems alone!I AM!!!I am really on the verge of having a nervous breakdown and giving everything up!Why is life so tough for me?Everyone may see me as a very happy and "cute" boy on the outside,but on the inside...no one really understands me...
I was always on the brim of breaking down,but someone,always kept me going,My HOLY FATHER!!!Wahahas!No time for preaching!
It's her!Yes her!My beloved...her!Wenever i wanna cry,i will just think of her face and that she is always there with me and i feel that everything is soon alright...because i know that this is true love...and i don't care how long i will have to wait,i will just wait...and wait...and wait...you all can continue waiting...i go sleep first!WAHAHAS!!!LOLS!I go sleep and wait...nite...

My Blog!!!

2006-07-23T19:36:00.000+08:00

O-M-G!!!How come have so many peoples know my new blog?Like just started last week than so much people know liaos arr!I want to keep it at a low profile de lehs!What to do?i really very scare that she will come to find out about this leh!Someone help me!Even some of my clarinet seniors know about this liao!Anyway...concert coming up liao...so nervous...then so many of the clarinetists are sick and yet to recover!like have 5 sick liao!Really afarid that we will break down!God,please help us!Must train really hard liao!what if really can't make it?so SAD!loved her for 156 days now...

So FREAKING sad lehs...

2006-07-23T00:28:00.000+08:00

haiz...i so sad leh these few days in band...cos of the solo parts lars!i see the eupho the sec 2,can plat the solo leh!then i so jealous you know!really very lor...then my best friend Min...today's Yamato also have the solo!WAAAAAHHHHHH!!!Like have someone pour down 100 gallons of vinigar down my throat!SOB!!!Really very sad leh!wait i no solos de?not even one?haiz...am i really that bad?haiz...maybe can't help!heard that next year Mr Er next year the SYF choice piece have Eb solo!But at that time,seniors haven't step down yet!WHY???!!!really want to blurt out the F word arrs!Haiz...maybe this is part of life...can't blame...like her...so cute and beautiful,that's why have so many people like lors!can't blame...just hope that i will get her one day and can blow Eb one day!Say first arrs...i not greedy...is my basic needs!WAHAHAS!who am i crapping...todayband still can lars...but the third hor...really very soft,like blow for ants to hear ones leh!Think must pump more energy liaos!Well...that time the ENG ST like i top the lvl leh...quite sure...only left I class to complete!JUN JIE,STEVEN,LI JUAN!"CAMBATEI!!!"Must be louder in third!can't let other people see us lousy!Cos if 1 fall,we all fall together!Must stand united!that's all folks!

BAND ROXS MY LIFE!!!

2006-07-22T22:47:00.000+08:00

My entertainment in life was never complete until i joined a wonderful CCA...BAND!!!Wahahas...i didn't really liked band when i first joined it...as it was my mother's choice in forcing me to join this CCA.Not knowing why...in just a few months time...I LOVE BAND LIKE SIAO!!!Lols...i feel that i cannot live my life without it...my instrument was clarinet...then my instrutor,Mr Er,asked me to try out an elite instrument called obole...but i really didn't like it...what half hole or something...so i went back to my sweet little clarinet...i trained hard for it...coming for sectional on almost everyday!I was quite glad that i did manage to catch up with some of my clarinet friends!Now...in sec 2...i was actually in 2nd clari...but my counting skills for beats was so lousy that i went to 3rd...but soon,i went back to 2nd...as i had improved!haiz...then there was a good news...and bad news...the bad one was,I HAD TO GO BACK TO 3RD!!!But the good one was, that i went back to help!hehe...so BHB rite?so aleast i went back with a happy heart!HEHE!but still my passion for band has never band...as it felt as if it was my family!All the the outings were very great too!THANKS BAND!!!I really loved the times we had together...wherethe it was good or bad!ANOTHER THING!!!I LOVE Eb CLARINET LIKE SIAO!just looking at it makes my legs go weak!Wahahas!That's all...nite everyone!

I really love her!NO ONE can think of STOPPING me!!!

2006-07-19T18:59:00.000+08:00

Haiz...have loved her for 152 days now...lots of people oftenly ask me if it is worth it...as they say the higher i pin my hopes on her...and in the end get rejected...the higher i will fall and the heart break will be worse!But...i tell them...you can't expect love to always be fruitful rite?Have you all ever heard of the song "I will always love you" by Whitney Houston?That's just what i want to say to her...what ever happens between us...she may hate me, dun feel anything for me or whatever...I will just tell her this...I WILL ALWAYS LOVE HER!!!I seriously love her you know...i still remember that on the day when we perform...the girls had to pin up her hair...as you know, she those kind very cool one!Wahahas...then she never pin up lor!then the teacher checking scolded till she cried leh!i could see tears streaming out of hereyes...and you know how i felt?every drip that came out was like someone stabbing a few hundred times in my heart!sob...it was really very heart breakening for me to witness that scence...What was worse...was when at the room...she left the room that could leave the other person in danger...but actually the other person told her not to lock the door...so it wasn't really her fault!the teacher happened to pass by and started to scold her like a mad dog!the next day...i could really see that her eyes were seriously swollen...seriously...my whole heart just teared into shreds!That whole nite...in my room...when my parnter slept...i really cried till i slept!I was telling myself...WHY?Why did she leaded such a hard life?i really wished that i could take away all her sufferings...as what ever she had suffered...i suffer a hundred times worse!from then on...i told myself...no matter what...i must do my utmost to protect her!her guardian angel i will be!LOLS!A fat angel you mean!But i dun care much...whatever...i know that i will protect her from now on!No one will stop me from protecting her!Bye...

START OF THE WEEK!!!

2006-07-18T08:59:00.000+08:00

Haha!!!Today's the start of the week!i feel really good that i am going to school to learn new things!But then again...it's really stressful!my brain's cracking!I AM STILL LOVING HER!!!buai...

Is this TrU3 l0ve?

2006-07-15T21:17:00.000+08:00

Haiz...he has been loving her for three weeks now...all these emotions are going through my head now...anger(the betrayal)...worried(what if she really likes him?)...nervous(what if my efforts these 7 months really go down the drain?)
They say that life is a roller coaster...akways full of ups and down...but why...does my life only have many downs?and only a few ups?why do i see others always smiling...always having something far better than me?always getting girls that they like in just a blink of an eye?while i...have always been the onestanding at the end of the line...and when it's my turn...there's nothing left?it's really not fair...i may be life on the outside...but when it comes to realtionships...i am the one always growing thinner...watching others begin bloated up by their parnters?
WHY???!!!Do i really have to live the rest of my life in this way?why can't anyone let me proof to them that i can be just as caring and concern as anyoneelse?do i really look ugly?Am i so bombastic that my ass can't squeeze through a door?Am i...WORTHLESS???!!!Watching all the relationships deepening through all my friends...i have a indiscribeable feeling that flows through me...i think...my friends...can taste sweetness from their parnters?while i experience bitterness,anger,sadness?it's really very heart wenching...can anyone help me?

HiHi!!!Changed my blog liaos...

2006-07-15T20:39:00.000+08:00

Yo!hello!just came back from my June holidays!had so much fun in china!I ACTUALLY CLIMED THE GREAT WALL!!!WAHAHAS!!!anyway...i went there for competion one!is my band!BAND ROCKS!haha...we got gold leh!can say that we are the best CCA in CVSS...i am proud to say that!hehe...there the food also very nice...but sometimes abit salty...i think i go china with my band...was the best oversea trip i ever had!THANK GOD 4 that!!!AMEN!!!But quite sad...you know why?i actually like this girl...about 7 plus months liao...from 18 febuary 10.46am start loving her liao...then the whole band spread like siao...think she last 2 months know liao...but she once told me that she will never like younger guys...which broke my heart...as I AM YOUNGER THAN HER!!!why like that?so sad you know...then i still dun care...i tried to overcome this obsticale...then around 2 weeks ago...i found out that one of my best friend...find her very cute...then like her...WORSE IS...IN CHINA TRIP!!!OMG...i told myself...i so fat...he is average...then u tell me...who she will prefer?unless her eyes paste stamp then she will like me...a BIG FATASS!!!WAHAHAS...sob...why these kind of thing always happen to me one?why always the girl i like...either hates me in the end or will end uo with another boy?am i really that ill-fated?haiz...could this really be fate?pls...can anyone help me?I NEED HELP!!!